Wave of Light 10-10-2020

Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness

Established in 1988 by President Ronald Reagan.

This month includes those who suffered; stillbirths, miscarriages, SIDS, or a loss during any point in pregnancy or infancy.

It seems to be common for loss mothers to plants trees or gardens on loss anniversaries. It allows the memory and love to grow and be visual.

On October 15th, at 7pm in all timezones please light a candle to celebrate the Wave Of Light

If you have suffered a loss, my heart is with you. I myself lost a baby July 24,2016. It still to this day is hard for me. Some of us have babies we never met or they were gone much too soon. I am sorry, you are not alone.

2020 Mental Health

May is half way over already! Time has been flying by this year. How are you holding up? Is this time at home giving you a struggle with mental health? Are you more stressed, or maybe more tired…

Its okay. This isnt a normal life right now. It can be challenging and hard. If you have kids you might be battling a few issues at once. Maybe you dont have kids but are struggling because of a loss of a job.

No matter what is going on, please know there are resources, there are people to help!

Mental disorders; there’s more than just anxiety and depression. OCD is super common, but it can be an issue! Phobias, ugh I have a few. They can make certain tasks harder than need be. Bipolar disorder often times goes misdiagnosed…eating disorders… they may be triggered by stress.

What ever the problem is, know that you deserve to be happy. You deserve to enjoy life. If you are struggling, reach out to me and i can help find the right people to talk to.

You are not alone.

You are loved and cared about.

What Would You Ask?

If you have a loved one that has passed away what would you ask them? Who would you talk to again?

For myself its easy to answer- it will always be my dad. I wish I could have him back even if just for an hour.

I’d ask if I’ve made him proud. If he is happy with me for the choices I’ve made.

I’d ask that he “sing” Gold Digger again because that’s always in my mind. I’d ask if he think my oldest son looks like him, because he does. I’d ask what he favorite memory of us would be, and what he felt like his greatest accomplishment was.

I’d ask if he felt pain because that’s my worry- that he felt pain when he died. I’d hear him call me “bug” one last time and say I love you. These are my questions , what would you ask? Family history questions? Personal?

I was 14

I was 14.

I was 14 when I walked in and found my father dead in his bed.

I was 14 when my world changed forever.

I was 14 when I gave up God. I was 14 when I realized I had basically no one in my corner anymore.

I was a child. I not only lost my dad, my only parent. But I was a child and found my dad dead.

You see lots of people lose their parents, even when they are still a child. Some handle it well other do not.

The one thing that is important hereYOU DO NOT GET TO DECIDED HOW A TRAUMA IMPACTS SOMEONE ELSE. YOU DO NOT GET TO DECIDE WHEN A PERSON SHOULD MOVE ON OR GET OVER THAT LOSS BECAUSE OTHERS DEAL WITH IT TOO.

They will handle it when the time comes. I am now 25 and just in the last year began to process it all. That is eleven years for me.

11.

Let that sink in.