12 Years.

My father, at lake erie

His happy places were fishing, watching NFL amd NASCAR.

He enjoyed a lot towards the end of his life, he worked hard and deserved it.

He had a lot of struggles in his 41 years on this earth.

I cant say he was the best man, person or father there was… But I sure can say he was perfect for me.

I was raised to be strong and independent. I was raise to know right from wrong. I was raised by a single father…

I didn’t know we were ever poor until I was older, but I had every thing I needed.

I was loved.

My dad was taken from my life was to soon. I was 14. In the past 12years he has missed my graduting with honors, serving 5years in the Navy. He missed the births of his grandsons and my marriage…

So many days I wish I could simply call him, or drive to his house…

I miss him.

Heres to 12 years… Amd more to come… Waiting til my kids are old enough to understand so I can tell them stories about him.

What Would You Ask?

If you have a loved one that has passed away what would you ask them? Who would you talk to again?

For myself its easy to answer- it will always be my dad. I wish I could have him back even if just for an hour.

I’d ask if I’ve made him proud. If he is happy with me for the choices I’ve made.

I’d ask that he “sing” Gold Digger again because that’s always in my mind. I’d ask if he think my oldest son looks like him, because he does. I’d ask what he favorite memory of us would be, and what he felt like his greatest accomplishment was.

I’d ask if he felt pain because that’s my worry- that he felt pain when he died. I’d hear him call me “bug” one last time and say I love you. These are my questions , what would you ask? Family history questions? Personal?